!!!! I HATE JERKS !!!!

why do u contact me back?, just as when im forgettin u??

why must u see me?, just to LEAVE me??

why all the LIES?? why the pretences??!

STOP!! Stop all this nonsense!!

Ure the one who made me fell for u..

Ure the one who stole my heart.

but Ure also the one who made me HATE guyz now!!

Ure the one person that reasoned to it.

I HATE GUYZ I HATE GUYZ I HATE GUYZ!!!


!!!!!I HATE THESE KIND OF GUYZ!!!!!


Guyz are such a JERKS!


!!!!!JERKS JERKS JERKS!!!!!

HATE JERKS HATE JERKS HATE JERKS HATE JERKS

why....??

why...? why is the world full of nonsense??

who am i to u?? i wanna know!!

am i a puppet to u??

why do u treat me this way??

when u miss me, u meet me..

when after that?? u LEAVE me!!

i hate that!! i'm not your spare tyre!

i'm not the the one whom u can mess around with!

I AM NOT LIKE OTHER NORMAL GERLZ.

i love u for who u are..but u?? ure not!

u treat me like some shirt.

when u wanna wear, u wear. when u don't wanna wear, u put it aside.

i hate it! i hate guyz now!!!!!

is guyz always like this???

ATTACK!! :)

how am i suppose to say?
i just know i really miss him so much.....

well 1 day after he messaged me, we arranged to meet..

it was friday 22nd.

and i don't have school that day.

of course i do not want to miss the chance to see him..
how can i? hahah. =P

went to changi..for the second time with him..
but i wonder why..why do things go awry?
the last time, i suddenly cried..
then now??

.....

while i'm just restin on him, my heart pumps fast.
it beats increasingly fast. i'm grasping for air.
i tried to breath as much as i could.
i know what's happenin to me..i know what's happenin around me.
but there's only two of us there.
and i just don't have the strength to do anything..not even talking.

at the first few moments, he doesn't know that i got asthma attack.
just as when he realised that i breath so much faster than i usually breath,
he started to call me..

"yana? u? u? yana wake up, don't scare me.

u..wake up u.."

hmm..., i heard u my dear...
i just don't have the strength to tell u that i'm helpless!

for the first time, i see him cried, heard him cried.
and that's also the first time i feel that someone 'outside' actually
care for me.

oh well!, life goes on...
i dint bring inhaler..of which i dint even realise i dint!!
haah..and so i darnk water..

hmm, whenever i got asthma, and i don't bring along,
i would have to darink LOTs of warm water..
but then at that point of time, there's NO plain water..
there's only 3/4 bottle of sprite!
still, i drank it S0o fast.
well at least i drank WATER rite...? lols.

and e story continues....at e other blog ;)

somethin different..

miss u!

~back to blogging again~

Wow! after such a LO0onNGg time, today, he messaged me again.
I wonder what made him to. Does he miss me? Heheeh.. (What a wishful thinking!)
Well most probably maybe not.
But for sure, I Miss Him So Much! =(

Everyday. Everyday i kept thinking about him.
Sometimes i even dreamt about him.
There were parts in the dream, we were happy together.
We were free. Free from being stress. Nothing stop us form seeing each other.
...How i wish it will come true in life............