end of feb to end of march

i'm feelin breathless

whenever i think of u

of what u did

of how u treat me so nice, not nice..

i grasp desperately for air

my heart pumps fast

i don't know why

BUT ITS FOR REAL!

11mar

" cyg, sori nvr had some1 hu cared 4 mie dat mch..my kwn bace msg n told mie..ur mine..eu ar eu okie..i dnt care for mieself..eu revive mie "


18mar

" cn we lyk dun msg for a wk? "

alrights, i agreed on it, giving u time to sort it out, think it out, relax yourself.
but i asked myself, did u? did u relax ur mind? have u really think it out straight? i dont think so.
n yeah, i agreed on it, but also based on ur promise to me that u will contact me again at e same timing we parted. 6pm.

" i will i promize eu to death "


26mar

but where's e promise that u made to me? is it 6pm? no. it wasn't. instead, i'm e one who msged u. i'm e one who called u.

1wk. 1wk i kept my misses.
N yet? i hear ur voice like this?
when will i hear again?...,
e voice that's cheerful?...
e voice that wanna makes people happy?..

29mar

we meet again.

i've got soo much to talk to u about..
soo much to discuss.

my heart says a thousand words
but i dont know why
my mouth kept shut.
only tears flowin.

my stomach's grumblin
but dont know why
throat feels like vomittin.....

my eyes feels heavy
but dont know why
its so wide open.....

my body feels tired
but dont know why
i tossed and turned,
here and there.....


31mar

~i end it all. i cant take it any longer.~

heys. n since it seems to me that u dont wanna contact me anymore, then i shall not waste my time..
u have to know im totally sad about this..u even saw me cryin that day..
n juz fyi, that's not e first time i cried for/about u..
not because of ur behaviour..but because im worried for u..
u know how i felt for u..n u should have known that URE r one who made me fell for u..
u said it urself before that time..,
" juz too bad, eu att "
but i dont understand why, now that im not, ur words are different.
sighs. nope, being wit u as friends now, will even make me more hurt, more sad.

goodbye forever!