I think u got the wrong idea, ace.

hey, u got it wrong. what game?? i dint bring u to any game?...

who do u mean, "eu both knw each other" ?? u mean lilah is it?..

if thats the case, Nope, i don't know her..

i juz happened to read her blog after going to urs. thats all.

anyway, its for a good cause that i wanna contact back with u..

there's no other intention.. i offer peace, not war.. hope u understand what i mean.

and btw, just like u have ur own gerl, i have my own guy.. so we're fair. i dont mean anything aitez..was just hoping to become a friend. lol. that is if u dont mind. i couldn't care less even if u dont want to be friends wit this lady here.. (we both know what happened before this) Lol. kiddin. but anyways, am looking forward to hearing from u........

As a FRIEND that i remember........

<<<>>>>


I guess ure done with ur life. u've at last found it. complete her life. complete UR life. im happy for u two too. don't want u to be sad. coz i still treat u as a fren. im over u, don't worry. i juz pity lilah nw. it feels as if, she went through the same thing as what i did. know what im thinking? i think u should lower down ur ego..., and go talk to her.. hoping that she'll be okay..

shall i say something? i want to be ur friend. just like any normal friends do.. talk only once in a while., go out once in a while.. it wouldn't hurt rite? not alone of course. hmm, we both can bring our own 'spouse'.... u know how to contact me im sure. =) hope to hear from u soon.

YOU read this!

ure not forgiven!
ure neither my friend.., nor my worst nightmare..

and so now i know that of what importance i hold in ur heart..
so now i know why ure behaving this way..
so now i know how u couldnt take ur mind off her...

my questions before this are answered.
but new ones came up.

just why must u give hopes to those innocent ones??
.....includin' me............... ????? =(


i can see that u've created a blog of ur own now huh?
gd....then u shall see mine too.
i keep going back to ur blog, and RIGHT NOW,
i can see that u have deleted 'that' post away..
errrgghh...... i cant help but to stay cool.


just what have i done, for u to make me feel this way??
do u know that by, YOU doing this to me,
im actually doing the same thing to other guyz???!
i hate it! i just hate it!



"i admit, i flirt around" ~ was said by u in ur blog














i am sure.., there are many more gerlz....that would become like me too..
because of u.
i know of at least 1 person that's FOURTEEN for god sake!



why do u have to prey on those innocent ones??


u know what?
im seriously trying to forget about u.
i really do.
now that i think back,
i realised that u just have the charismatic attitude..
gerlz just happen to fall for it.
AND YOU PURPOSELY MAKE IT THAT WAY..


u relent it.
u took advantage of it.
u let them be obsessed with u.
& u like it.
and ure doing NOTHING about it.


"im a man of my words"~said by u in ur blog.


and fyi, u proved me wrong. u may have said that u are,
but do u recall how u have had broken 2 promises made?
u may have not remember it, but i do.
do not want to talk about it here....haizz...

one more thing, about my message to u the other time,
u got it partly right.
what i meant was,
do not continue ur atrocious behaviour
Stop preying on young gerlz..or even boyz
my hidden message was,
Stop making other people fall for u
"what goes around, comes around"
remember that words?
please etch it in ur mind.
that fourteen year old gerl, she just reminds me of me.
she said the exact same words i said to u..
i pity her...for having to have met u.

let me tell u something....

for ur heartbroken lover

nothing will come out of it if ure doin nothing

just do something better if u want better things to happen between u two.

FOR ONCE MAN, DO SOMETHING RIGHT, will u??

and for ur STUPID latest post as of now,

suicide isn't the way out...

whats the use of it?

NOTHING WILL COME OUT OF IT

i repeat,

NOTHING!

okay??

LIFE GOES ON!

fine, now i can accept that u no longer are in my life.

i will cast you away from my heart, one day.....

Words of Mouth......

words of mouth......

what do i mean by that??...

i think generally people know what i mean...

the tree wont sway if there's no wind

are u really the person of what i've heard of?

are u really the person that just wanna toy feelings around??

i wanna know....cause

i see no point cryin over an attitude of a playboy

!!I DONT WANT U TO BE 1!!

why did u change ur direction in such a SHORT while?

i asked u before...and i wanna ask again..

??WHAT'S UR TRUE FEELING TOWARDS ME??

?what do u treat me as?

i realized, i realized that i make myself hate u.

but..but i cant bring myself to do that fully.

i really want to hate u.....i want to know ur bad points..

so that i cant eventually forget totally about u..

do u EVER know that, when the other time when u contact me back..,

i just wanted to treat us as F.R.I.E.N.D.S ??

i really do.....

cause by being friends, i can still AT LEAST know how u are.

i wanna know if ure ok..

wanna know if ure NOT being beaten up..

EVEN, if ure still alive.......

sad thing to say.., but im being serious.

!!!! I HATE JERKS !!!!

why do u contact me back?, just as when im forgettin u??

why must u see me?, just to LEAVE me??

why all the LIES?? why the pretences??!

STOP!! Stop all this nonsense!!

Ure the one who made me fell for u..

Ure the one who stole my heart.

but Ure also the one who made me HATE guyz now!!

Ure the one person that reasoned to it.

I HATE GUYZ I HATE GUYZ I HATE GUYZ!!!


!!!!!I HATE THESE KIND OF GUYZ!!!!!


Guyz are such a JERKS!


!!!!!JERKS JERKS JERKS!!!!!

HATE JERKS HATE JERKS HATE JERKS HATE JERKS

why....??

why...? why is the world full of nonsense??

who am i to u?? i wanna know!!

am i a puppet to u??

why do u treat me this way??

when u miss me, u meet me..

when after that?? u LEAVE me!!

i hate that!! i'm not your spare tyre!

i'm not the the one whom u can mess around with!

I AM NOT LIKE OTHER NORMAL GERLZ.

i love u for who u are..but u?? ure not!

u treat me like some shirt.

when u wanna wear, u wear. when u don't wanna wear, u put it aside.

i hate it! i hate guyz now!!!!!

is guyz always like this???

ATTACK!! :)

how am i suppose to say?
i just know i really miss him so much.....

well 1 day after he messaged me, we arranged to meet..

it was friday 22nd.

and i don't have school that day.

of course i do not want to miss the chance to see him..
how can i? hahah. =P

went to changi..for the second time with him..
but i wonder why..why do things go awry?
the last time, i suddenly cried..
then now??

.....

while i'm just restin on him, my heart pumps fast.
it beats increasingly fast. i'm grasping for air.
i tried to breath as much as i could.
i know what's happenin to me..i know what's happenin around me.
but there's only two of us there.
and i just don't have the strength to do anything..not even talking.

at the first few moments, he doesn't know that i got asthma attack.
just as when he realised that i breath so much faster than i usually breath,
he started to call me..

"yana? u? u? yana wake up, don't scare me.

u..wake up u.."

hmm..., i heard u my dear...
i just don't have the strength to tell u that i'm helpless!

for the first time, i see him cried, heard him cried.
and that's also the first time i feel that someone 'outside' actually
care for me.

oh well!, life goes on...
i dint bring inhaler..of which i dint even realise i dint!!
haah..and so i darnk water..

hmm, whenever i got asthma, and i don't bring along,
i would have to darink LOTs of warm water..
but then at that point of time, there's NO plain water..
there's only 3/4 bottle of sprite!
still, i drank it S0o fast.
well at least i drank WATER rite...? lols.

and e story continues....at e other blog ;)

somethin different..